By Lisa Elway
This must be the turning point in my life. It must be. Your strength will make me perfect even in the strongest of temptations. You in my life will enable me to live in the freedom that I need. That I have desired so long for. My dreams lie beyond the ordinary and my reasoning for that matter how beautiful this is. It will not be about what I do it will be about how I do what I do. It will be substantially real, other times it will be hidden and subtle. Only you would take me to 1000 places I would never go on my own. Places that may be uncomfortable and inconvenient. You have always started in a small way with me.
It’s time to do something. Anything. And if the water gets too deep I know that you’re the one leading me there. And I will never drown… and I trust you to hold me up. Deep unto deep. Perhaps true faith isn’t always this way. Sometimes, however, I can’t be completely sure. I will act on the part of your direction that I do understand and the results are yours and when I don’t understand I still go. Someone has to make the first move. Still my thinking and my actions need to be grounded. The hard times that I’ve endured is what is shaping me and that is how I am growing. Time.
Time such a scared gift. And this has been very costly. Very. Nothing will be as it was. Is that a good thing? Your word says that you give and you take away but your word also says that you will restore double what was lost. I cling to that while you do this very deep work in my heart. I am made for depth. And I’m not the person I used to be. You have taught me to dream again and you have planted vision inside of my heart a kind of vision that lets me see the invisible things.
The struggles I’ve been through have sometimes pushed me to the place where I have easily lost track of the truth. The difficulties will continue to come. I look back at my life and I can see you in it everywhere. You want me to respond even when opposition comes and it comes. My focus will not be in the wrong place anymore no matter what. You are my refuge. You protect me. You cover me. And nothing I could ever do or say or believe or suffer will ever change that. Who I am is still unfolding. I think this is going to help anyone that carries a heaviness today. Because when I wrote this.. I was in a heavy place.
The future that is ahead is infinite compared to what is behind. You will teach things over and over until I learn them. You’re not letting me go. I will not be discouraged with what I am still working through. Don’t you see it? How when people gave up on me you were always still there? Well I’m ready. I’m ready now for what’s next my heart is ready I am wiser now and I’m stronger now. I’ve learned so so much through all the hard places. I survived this season and I am hopeful now I’m not in darkness anymore anything that is truly for me in my life you will not let get away from me.
